The Secret of My Heart

I always say in my blog, love a person without asking anything in return. I have learn to live with that principle even if pain make things harder for me. I have to be prepared for a daily dose of pain and discomfort. Yes, it's unpleasant and demotivating but I have come to realize that it's part of the process. In the first place, I have chosen this. Loving without asking. Loving without expecting. It's not always need to be a give and take process; because a life without love is like a night without moon and stars.

This night ends that dream. A dream that is really beautiful and unforgettable. This night marks the start of reality. Someone awakens me. Someone told me to open my eyes but my heart still dreaming of you. You fell out of love too fast. You gave me no warnings, no signs.I didn't realize that on this night, everything will come to an end. (or did it even really started?)

I am too emotional this night maybe because I have no one to talk to. Usually on a night like this, it is you whom I want to talk to. We talked about life. We talked about our dreams. But on this night, I have to talked with myself. I'm alone. This is why I am writing this blog. 

But deep inside me, even if it hurts so much, even if its the third time that it happened, my heart still longing for you. I still love you. But as I said before, I will just love you from a far, just like how the moon and the sun loved each other. They always come together but forever apart. 

Good night.

All is Well

It's always good to have a conversation about life. We always busy talking about work, everyday routine and life of other people, but we rarely talk about life.

There are really some things that are beyond our control. Nitong mga nakalipas na araw, madalas akong makagawa ng mali sa trabaho. Di ko maiwasang hindi mainis sa sarili ko dahil sa mga kapalpakan ko. Pero ganun naman talaga, hindi naman tayo perpekto para hindi magkamali. Pero sa kabilang banda, hindi dapat ito gawing excuse para gumawa ng mali. Kaya naman dalangin ko na tulungan ako ng Diyos na lalong maging mahusay sa trabaho.

Kaya naman masarap sa pakiramdam na paminsan- minsan ay huminto at magreflect. Suriin ang mga nangyari sa buhay. Nakasalalay naman sa ating sariling pananaw ang buhay. Nasa pagpili lang nang anggulong titingnan. Kaya minsan, sa kabila ng mga di kanais- nais na pangyayari, piliin na lang nating tingnan yung magandang anggulo. Minsan kailangan natin lokohin ng kaunti ang puso, tulad nga ng sabi sa pelikula "All is Well"

Not Just My Ordinary Sunday

“That was just three hours. But it is one of the best three hours of my life. We played and we had fun.”

Isa na namang first time esperience. Nakasakay ako ngayon sa LRT pauwi. Pinili ko na lang magsulat dahil nilalabanan ko ang antok. Antok na dala ng pagod. Parang mga batang paslit na excited sa paghawak ng raketa. Hinahabaol ang bola saan man ito magpunta. May mga sandaling hindi kami nagsasalita, ngunit nagkakaintindihan naman an gaming mga raketa at bola. Para kaming mga musmos na naglalaro sa kalsada. Walang pakialam sa pawis at sa itsura. Ineenjoy ang bawat minuto at oras na kami’y magkasama.

“That was just three hours. But it is one of the best three hours of my life. We played and we had fun.”